Wednesday, October 15
For da past 14 years in my life ,
i've learnt alot alot of things , get to noe a lot of different ppl .
Things i've been through have moulded me into a different person .
I've changed .
Not only me who have changed , ppl around me have changed too .
My friends , my siblings .
Everyone changes .
I've learnt that you have to learn to adapt to changes around u to survive .
Always living in the past can never help u to grow up .
It becomes a burden in you.
It will dragg u back , makin u tink negatively .
People who can easily adapt to new environment are usually happier .
They mix around and can blend in easily.
But people who cannot adapt to new environment easily will always lack back behind others.
They will usually turn anti-social .
Just like iling & me in the beginning when we entered Secondary school .
Our clique in primary school were all damn close .
Like honey like that .
LOLs .
So at first when we came in , we were not use to da new environment .
We didn't really make any new friends at the beginning .
Both living in da past .
Primary 6 was one of the best time in my life .
Had great friends , great class, great teacher .
Those happy memories will always be etch in my heart forever .
Though those happy moments are neva returning but im glad im able to experience it .
It makes me leave my primary school life with no regrets .
Even though now my primary school friends and i are in different school,
we still do meet-up & do some catch up.
We would also have some class gathering every year.
I get to see some of my old classmates and had some catch-up wif them.
Jus by chatting with dem, i noe tat they've changed .
At first, i wasn't able to accept it .
I expect everyone to be the same like me .
Still stuck living in the past , but i was wrong.
They've changed.
They were able to adapt to new environment .
I could only watch them changed as i'm still stuck living in the past .
I felt terrible .
Is that what i want ?
Why couldn't i changed like them ?
I know i had to learn to adapt to new environment .
I had to change .
I had to accept the fact that i'm in secondary school ,
not in primary school anymore .
Im da kind who would always be stuck living in da past,
it takes me some time before blending in with the class .
I wanted to go back to the past , wanted to rewind time to where i used to be .
But i noe miracles can never happen .
Only you can make miracles happen .
Change is constant , you have to learn to change & adapt in order to survive .
I remembered once , when my parents were busy with their buisness and neglected me.
I hated them for always leaving me at home with my maid .
But what could i do?
Nothing , i could do nothing .
They worked so hard jux for me and my sibling .
They wanted us to live in luxury .
I know it's hard for them to raise 3 child .
They wanted the best for us .
But i was young then and couldn't understand .
I jux wanted to be rebellious, act rebellious on them , wanting to get attention from them .
And i succeeded by hurting them ?
People may think having siblings is good, especially having two brothers
as brothers always take good care for their younger once .
Having siblings also has their own problems .
Not only that , everyone has their own problems .
They didn't say it , didn't show it doesn't mean they are fine , free from troubles .
They jux want to cause less trouble for everyone .
I mean, as in , if everytime u meet a problem u get real upset .
How are u gona survive nex time when u grow up and goes to work ?
So what having two elder brothers ?
When they have their girlfriends they would spent less time at home .
Though your will still chat, go out wif them and their girlfriends, it will still be different .
The feelings are all different .
You will know that you guys aren't tat close anymore .
You know your brothers belong to their girlfriends, not you nor your parents anymore .
I was jealous of my brother's girlfriend at first .
I thought my brother was always my 'property' .
But i know sooner or later i have to accept the fact that my brother and i will not be that close anymore .
Sometimes, learnin to accept things makes a person happier .
Keep dueling in the past makes a person miserable .
Dun make life difficult .
Dun ever think tat the world has turn its back on u when ur da one turnin ur back to the world .
No matter what you do or what troubles you occur ,
giving up is neva the option .
Giving up means ur a weakling .
So, whenever i can, i would try and try .
I dun wana giv up, not yet .
I dun wan ppl tinking me as a weakling .
Whenever ppl are unsatisfied wif me , i'll try to tink if it's my fault first even it wasn't me .
I'll try to amend my mistakes if i realli did commit one.
I've learnt one most important point ever since i entered Secondary School .
That is to enjoy myself, not duelling over what someone think about me .
Cause it isn't important at all .
What they wan think or say is their problem .
It's their mouth and brain .
Being upset or wat over it would make them happier .
So dun ever be stupid ppl !
Dun ever duel on gossips about u .
Cause it aren't important .
Cherish whatever you have now , dun w8 till u loose it thn you'll realise .
Overall , relationship can wait till you've found da right one at the right time .
Families will always be the one by your side no matter what ups and downs .
Friendships do last if you believe in them .
For the past 14years in my life, i've learnt valueables lessons .
Being positive is one of the main point to survive in this complex world .
Making sacrifises is common for obtaining something , but it aren't right if you do it da rong way.
'用心去对待每一个人'
That is the right thinking , dun make sacrifises for your own profit .
Well, that's all .
Have done my reflection over my past 14years of my life .
Well well well ,
my results are disastrous .
It's disappointing .
Never study still do better siol .
What is done can never be undone , what can i do now ?
Do better for next paper oni lorhhs .
Or else what ?
Go commit suicide ahhs ?
or sit down there emo cut myself ?
EEYER !
Then dun wan hurt myself siol .
It's stupid lorhhs .
Tattas~
i've learnt alot alot of things , get to noe a lot of different ppl .
Things i've been through have moulded me into a different person .
I've changed .
Not only me who have changed , ppl around me have changed too .
My friends , my siblings .
Everyone changes .
I've learnt that you have to learn to adapt to changes around u to survive .
Always living in the past can never help u to grow up .
It becomes a burden in you.
It will dragg u back , makin u tink negatively .
People who can easily adapt to new environment are usually happier .
They mix around and can blend in easily.
But people who cannot adapt to new environment easily will always lack back behind others.
They will usually turn anti-social .
Just like iling & me in the beginning when we entered Secondary school .
Our clique in primary school were all damn close .
Like honey like that .
LOLs .
So at first when we came in , we were not use to da new environment .
We didn't really make any new friends at the beginning .
Both living in da past .
Primary 6 was one of the best time in my life .
Had great friends , great class, great teacher .
Those happy memories will always be etch in my heart forever .
Though those happy moments are neva returning but im glad im able to experience it .
It makes me leave my primary school life with no regrets .
Even though now my primary school friends and i are in different school,
we still do meet-up & do some catch up.
We would also have some class gathering every year.
I get to see some of my old classmates and had some catch-up wif them.
Jus by chatting with dem, i noe tat they've changed .
At first, i wasn't able to accept it .
I expect everyone to be the same like me .
Still stuck living in the past , but i was wrong.
They've changed.
They were able to adapt to new environment .
I could only watch them changed as i'm still stuck living in the past .
I felt terrible .
Is that what i want ?
Why couldn't i changed like them ?
I know i had to learn to adapt to new environment .
I had to change .
I had to accept the fact that i'm in secondary school ,
not in primary school anymore .
Im da kind who would always be stuck living in da past,
it takes me some time before blending in with the class .
I wanted to go back to the past , wanted to rewind time to where i used to be .
But i noe miracles can never happen .
Only you can make miracles happen .
Change is constant , you have to learn to change & adapt in order to survive .
I remembered once , when my parents were busy with their buisness and neglected me.
I hated them for always leaving me at home with my maid .
But what could i do?
Nothing , i could do nothing .
They worked so hard jux for me and my sibling .
They wanted us to live in luxury .
I know it's hard for them to raise 3 child .
They wanted the best for us .
But i was young then and couldn't understand .
I jux wanted to be rebellious, act rebellious on them , wanting to get attention from them .
And i succeeded by hurting them ?
People may think having siblings is good, especially having two brothers
as brothers always take good care for their younger once .
Having siblings also has their own problems .
Not only that , everyone has their own problems .
They didn't say it , didn't show it doesn't mean they are fine , free from troubles .
They jux want to cause less trouble for everyone .
I mean, as in , if everytime u meet a problem u get real upset .
How are u gona survive nex time when u grow up and goes to work ?
So what having two elder brothers ?
When they have their girlfriends they would spent less time at home .
Though your will still chat, go out wif them and their girlfriends, it will still be different .
The feelings are all different .
You will know that you guys aren't tat close anymore .
You know your brothers belong to their girlfriends, not you nor your parents anymore .
I was jealous of my brother's girlfriend at first .
I thought my brother was always my 'property' .
But i know sooner or later i have to accept the fact that my brother and i will not be that close anymore .
Sometimes, learnin to accept things makes a person happier .
Keep dueling in the past makes a person miserable .
Dun make life difficult .
Dun ever think tat the world has turn its back on u when ur da one turnin ur back to the world .
No matter what you do or what troubles you occur ,
giving up is neva the option .
Giving up means ur a weakling .
So, whenever i can, i would try and try .
I dun wana giv up, not yet .
I dun wan ppl tinking me as a weakling .
Whenever ppl are unsatisfied wif me , i'll try to tink if it's my fault first even it wasn't me .
I'll try to amend my mistakes if i realli did commit one.
I've learnt one most important point ever since i entered Secondary School .
That is to enjoy myself, not duelling over what someone think about me .
Cause it isn't important at all .
What they wan think or say is their problem .
It's their mouth and brain .
Being upset or wat over it would make them happier .
So dun ever be stupid ppl !
Dun ever duel on gossips about u .
Cause it aren't important .
Cherish whatever you have now , dun w8 till u loose it thn you'll realise .
Overall , relationship can wait till you've found da right one at the right time .
Families will always be the one by your side no matter what ups and downs .
Friendships do last if you believe in them .
For the past 14years in my life, i've learnt valueables lessons .
Being positive is one of the main point to survive in this complex world .
Making sacrifises is common for obtaining something , but it aren't right if you do it da rong way.
'用心去对待每一个人'
That is the right thinking , dun make sacrifises for your own profit .
Well, that's all .
Have done my reflection over my past 14years of my life .
Well well well ,
my results are disastrous .
It's disappointing .
Never study still do better siol .
What is done can never be undone , what can i do now ?
Do better for next paper oni lorhhs .
Or else what ?
Go commit suicide ahhs ?
or sit down there emo cut myself ?
EEYER !
Then dun wan hurt myself siol .
It's stupid lorhhs .
Tattas~
Capture our memories, 4:32 PM.
